A little over a year after arriving in Sendai, I notice
that I have developed a soft spot for this place. I like living here.
I like the skies above me and the streets I walk through.
I like the memories I have made here,
attached to and hidden
in specific places and things.
I like rushing through the bent alleyway of Sendai Asakusa, lined
with little restaurants and snack bars, when going out of town. I like my night
bus journeys which land me in Tokyo at 5:35 a.m., and I like the scenery along the
way whenever I can see it in daylight or the early evening.
I like discovering new spaces.
I like the adventures I get
to have here, both alone and with other people.
Last August, I came here thinking I would stay on JET for a
year, maybe two years at most, then move on to something else. But this
original vision has been revised; I decided to do what I thought was best for me
when I signed my recontracting papers at the beginning of the year, and now I
feel that I might make the same decision next February.
There is still so much I haven’t seen or experienced here,
and I do not want to leave until I break out of more old patterns, explore
beyond the well-treaded paths of this past year, and feel like I have made the
most of my time here.
Whatever time I have lost for working on my art in the
adjustment process, the switch to a completely different lifestyle, and the general tosses and turns of these
thirteen months, I have made up for in terms of personal development, which I
feel will be crucial to my work from now on.
For the longest time, I felt like I was floating around,
unable to connect to my life here and the people around me. As long as I kept
feeling like that, I knew my growth would be stunted, and I would not be able
to thrive. It took me a year to feel genuinely comfortable here, to start
feeling like I can put down some kind of roots, even if temporary, and grow. That
is an investment I do not want to waste.
When the time comes to move on, I will know it. For now, I am
quite happy to be where I am. Plus, in some way, I feel like it would not be
right to leave until I use up the spices and tea I have brought here from the
US.
And the peanut butter. If you haven't used that up by now, I will be very disappointed in you.
ReplyDeleteI haven't yet! It's about 3/5th gone, though... I had a PB & banana sandwich for breakfast this morning - first time in a while! So good.
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